The end of maternity leave is always the hardest… I remember feeling the same way with Elliot. My anxiety levels are sky high and the thought of leaving my baby girl for 8+ hours a day is heartbreaking. However, I keep telling myself it’s for the best, because it really is. I think I just need to accept the fact that I’m going to feel anxious, scared, and downright upset until we get into a good routine.
I think what worries me most is that Mila isn’t yet sleeping through the night. When I went back to work with Elliot at 12 weeks he already was, but Mila will only be 9 weeks when I go back to work so she’s not quite there yet. She’s getting better, but I still have to get up a few times each night and it’s exhausting. How will I be able to balance lack of sleep AND work? I know I can do it, but it’ll be hard.
I’m also worried about her transition to daycare. She will be going to the same in-home daycare Elliot goes to which is great, but I’m worried she won’t nap well there… she’s so used to sleeping in her crib. And if she doesn’t nap well during the day it’s going to wreak havoc on our evening / night time schedule.
This too shall pass.
THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
I’m a hormonal mess.